Ataraxia

From Lexis in Wolf’s Clothing, my 3rd poetry collection.

 

I can’t relax

Though I try

I want to go soft

Liquid soft, yielding

Move like mercury

Yet I feel heavy

And that’s not good

 

I want to defy gravity

Rise above myself

Lifted by my own breath

I am getting denser

I don’t like it

 

I want to thin out, be

As thin as aluminum foil

And then thinner still

But I am nothing like that

I am a black hole

And everything around me,

Including you,

Is adding to my weight

 

I want to shed light

Not attract it

Lightness will come eventually

It always does – and often just in time

But I want to get there on my own